Noodles on a Bike

"I like every type of music except for rap, R&B, country and jazz."

So, not only are you stupid, you're also a liar.

Myspace is kind of dumb.


Guess what?
I like every type of music.
THE END.

I have repaid my debt to society.

Today marks my sixth pint of donated blood.

So check off those six I borrowed for the back surgery!
Erika's free!

:)


Now I can start donating for fun!

To instantly drop 40 pounds.

Yeah, that'd be nice.

At the end...

Sort of makes me sound like a sadistic cynical sick and twisted freak.



Hm.
Maybe I am....


Basically I just shouldn't date.
At all.

So I am looking for this guy, I've created a rough prototype in my head.
But I am praying that he exists somewhere out there and I will wait for him to come.
I want to talk about everything with this boy.
I want hang out with him, and to hold his hand, even in public and when no one is looking.
I want to talk to him in person about tough things, not always on the phone.
I want to look deep into his beautiful eyes.
I want to kiss him, and I want him to want to kiss me back.
I want him to allow me to take him out to dinner, and have him try to pay for me every now and then.
I want to know everything there is to know about this boy, but I want him to have enough secrets so that when we are old we'll have something to talk about.
I want to make memories with this boy.
I want to give that which I have saved to this boy.
I want him to open doors every now and then.
I want him to be the guy I've always wanted and never had.
I want him to be the good guy.
I want him to introduce me to his parents, and I want to get along with them and get to know his family.
I don't want him to buy me flowers, I want him to pick his own.
I want him to have my favorite candies memorized, and I don't want him to shy from buying me new candies to try.
I want him to make me feel better when I'm having a bad day, simply by being there and understanding.
I want to create long lasting and happy memories…

Have you seen him?
He is fun loving and silly, kind of weird with a great sense of humor, he's always laughing.
He is smart and handsome.
He is sweet and sincere.
He loves spending time with me, but never forgets his old friends.
He adds to my life, not completes it.
I want to be everything to him that he is to me.


But sadly, I am not ready to meet him.
At a mere 18 years old I am not prepared to settle down, to meet the man of my dreams, to fall in love.

For now I want the relationship that will hurt. The one that'll make me doubt myself, the ones that will test my morale. I want to have fun, be dangerous.
I want the most experience possible with as many situations as possible.
I want to have the crummiest most unhealthy relationships possible so that when I do meet this dream man, he's all that more dreamy.

I never wanted to be a seven hour person.

Ugh.
At least eight?
MAYBE?!


But noooo.
It has to be seven.
:(


Waaaagh.

Two to nine.
I so wanted to sleep in until ten. Just force myself that last hour.
Didn't work.

Is the one's that do actually like you.

But you're still thinking about the one that maybe doesn't actually like you as much.
And you're kind of dumb for thinking the way you do.


Not, not kind of.
You're an idiot.

I can...
Guilt trip a guy into meeting me.
Or allow him to use me, and therefore meet me.

But can I keep them?
No, not really.


It's funny when you realize that maybe they don't like you all that much, but you still like them the same amount.


My brain does not make sense.

is one tired puppy.

It is safe to say:

I am happy.



^.^

Oh what a beautiful day!
I've got a beautiful feeling, everything's going my way!


I feel like I should be flying a kite.
Or playing frisbee.

Something!

I've got to get outside!
Haha.


So first I'm doing the online stuff... and then I'm going to weed the garden, hooray!
At least it's outside.
:)



Ahhhhh.
What a good day.
:D

Thank you Mommy.
:)


I did get new clothes.
And they are super cute.

I like being a smaller size again.




:D

To get more sleep.

Energy drinks only go so far!

My freak-out factor.

UGH!

haha. I'm weird.
But seriously.

Why can't I just let it be?

I dunno why.
:(

Ugh.

If it had never started in the first place.

Received by: World

Subject: We need to talk....



I need a break.
We just need some time apart, to find ourselves, you know? We've been together for an awfully long time and I feel as though we just need a little break.
Not necessarily to see other people, I mean just, we've spent so much time together. I promise it's only for a week. Then we'll be just like old times, okay World?

You know I love you.
Always have and always will.
I just need some time to find myself.

-Erika